What I've become

Hello again dear blog xxx

Well, a lot has been happening since we last connected. I read a few of the old posts and see that I was slightly fixated with red wine and magic. Which is all good, in moderation for the first and in excess for the second.

I went through a massive 9month stint of not drinking ANYTHING, and walking each day, mantra, Kirtan, meditation etc. All good for the Mind, Body and Spirit. Then, at the end, to save my marriage, my friendship, my relationship, my family, ...I involved myself again, and seeing as I am 'ms fertility', the result is Angelina Petal. Freaked me out no end, but, I do so honestly believe, in all my heart, that things happen for a purpose, so I took a few months to go through the twists and turns of 'how the bloody hell am I going to do this!', and, 'why is this happening NOW????!', and came to a Peace.
I came to a strength too.
I came to realise I had friends, and those friends were and invaluable source of strength in their own right, but encouraged my own sense of power too.

So now, dear blog, I am more powerful from a most powerful experience, that I am guilty of not talking to you about. The waterbirth, at home, of my third child, Angelina Petal :)

Pics coming soon :)
Promise! :)

Whao! back again!

The view from my new herb garden pot. We buried Angelina's placenta in here and things grow fantastically! :)

Yegodz...has it been so long!? Apologies oh little blog. I didn't mean to neglect you so. I've been ever so busy being kept awake for the last year or more with this little baby, and the children...and we began Home-ed again last year...so I've been you know, just flat out... Soz. ;(

If its at all an excuse, I've been working at this new business...keeping it going and getting ahead a bit. We've moved again, this time to Eagleby near Beenliegh. The nieghbours at Ormeau were repulsive. Smoking, swearing, verbally abusing their small children, and the house, mon dieu...the house. SO many spiders, so close to the other houses...so blaaaghhhh. Big, new, spacious etc...but drafty, ill-designed. The feng shui of it was not overcomable with ANY of the tricks and tweaking I know about...and trust me, I know about a LOT of them.

So, over the next few weeks, I'll fill you in all about the new developments...the children had to be formally registered for Home-ed, so I'm 'in process' with that now. I feel like I want to completely turn around everything and change it all, business, home-life, everything.

Anyway. Stay tuned.

xxx!

I love my cool green page.
Its been so long since I put a post up. Partly this is due to baby being very demanding, and the time I DID get in front of the computer was used to find our new house, pay bills, or run the business. Writing sort of got sidelined, which is such a shame 'cause I find it cathartic, and inspiring and plain useful.
Our new home is great. Big, spacious, kind of echoey until we put the carpets down,...but all good. The toilets have exhaust fans in them that come on automatically, which is the only downside we experience, and one that Wil commented on the other day. He chose to pee in our ensuite loo during the day so he doesn't have to put the light on. Natural urinating is important to our boy...
The grass has no big ants. This is one major plus as I can put bubby down on the grass and she can rip the blades out with her little bitty toes. It goes all over the change table then, but I just love her face when she's gripping the grass and sucking in big happy breaths through her gummies, utterly satisfied with a big dose of earth energy vibes. :)
Charlie is looking forward to her own room and has decked out the 'playroom' in readiness for her 'move' when Wil can be happy sleeping in the middle room with baby.
Rob and me are looking forward to this too. I think we disturb her sleep sometimes, and I know she disturbs mine. But would I lie awake if I thought I'd heard a noise from the other room? Will I end up tip toeing through the hallway to 'check' on her three times a night? Ah, the questions of parenthood...

so now with all this good stuff coming my way, I am very hopeful of a happy stay here. The gum trees are all about. I woke up to birdsong this morning without the background of heavy vehicle traffic. It was lovely.
I think I could seriously go even further rural if the opportunity arose. I see a galvanised roof and warbling maggies in dawn light, frost on paddock grass, and slow moving cows moving up from a misty billabong.
It'd be grand wouldn't it.
:)