Just gonna leave it all up to Heaven

Patterns in Life reoccurring...

we get financially 'ok', feel good, start to get those restless feet.
move house. usually to somewhere we deep down know we can't afford.
financially fuq up to a massive degree.
usually there is a new baby in the mix somewhere ready to be born or just arrived.
therefore sleep dep is prevalent.
therefore my head doesn't f ing work properly.

is this all Perception skewed or am I really having yet another 'pattern cycle' occurrence?

damn it...

Surely we've got enough 'universal brownie points' to qualify for even a moderate win on the Lotto to pull us out of the crap this time? yes?

Hmmm?

So, gonna leave it all up to Heaven, and let the Angels take care of it all in Perfect Ways.

When I'm in these moments of panicked reflection, I remember that it makes me not take notice of all those things that ARE really important...like how fast and cute Wil is, how his blonde curls weren't ever going to last forever, and how much I appreciate loving them for as long as they lasted :)

My own words, thankyou...

This morning, Angelina and I spent some quiet moments watching the sun rise, listening to the birds, watching clouds, sipping tea (and her hot cacao) etc...we reflected on a few things and then I asked her if she would try to sing the song she'd asked me to sing her the night before.
It was the 'sing a song of sixpence' nursery ryhme, and I asked her if she could repeat the words after me, so she could learn it and sing it to her auntie or the new baby...

I sang 'Sing a song of sixpence a pocket full of rye...', and then asked her to sing it back to me.

She slyly looked at me,...sideways, out the corner of her eyes and with a cheeky grin announced in a sing songy voice, "Zinga Zangah zooo zoo and packet full of POOOOOO". And then dissolved into her own merriment.


I decided not to try anymore 'repeat after me' things this morning.

We watched clouds again.

Pelican Totems

Last night I dreamed of ancient Pelicans, drifting, soaring and manoevering as a group or flock in the cloudy sky. Their synchronicity mesmerized me as did their prehistoric appearance, the 'rawness' of their newly developed physical form and the adeptness of their flight. So Beautiful.
The dream had no soundtrack, all was silence and movement.

You'll just have to imagine this one in a cloudy sky... ;]

I find the energy of Pelican to be very 'familiar' to me. They are communal creatures, using formation flying to conserve each other's energy, hunting together to improve success, and they sense danger easily. Evidence of Pelican colonies goes back some 60million years and shows that they have the ability to sense change and move towards better and more beneficial locations. Apparently if you dream of Pelican it can mean you are in, or about to enter into, a fortuitous friendship or partnership with a person, or more likely several people :) Nice eh? :)

Sweet Dreams
xxx